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too lazy to update about jack shit, this is just a notice that ill be in berlin for a week and so probably nowhere near a computer.

cant remember whether or not ive even posted a happy new years or what the fuck ever, dont really care. this will come as a surprise but i am actually in an ok mood, just a bit hungover.

i really dont want to go home.

alles ist in ordnung.
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    bisschen rammstein
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We're in the building where they make us grow
And I'm frightened by the liquid engineers
Like you

My mallory heart is sure to fail
I could crawl around the floor just like I'm real
Like you

The sound of metal I want to be you
I should learn to be a man!
Like you

Plug me in and turn me on
Oh everything is moving now

I need my treatment it's tomorrow they send me
Singing "I am an American"
Do you?

Picture this if i should make the change
I'd love to pull the wires from the wall
Did you?

And who are you and how could I try?
Here inside I like the metal
Don't you?

All I know is no one dies
I'm still confusing love with need
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    nine inch nails-metal
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(todays the day)



don’t infekt me with your poisonn.

i have an idea for my photography assignment. and no ms naylor, it doesnt involve any childrenn or animals .
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    you cannot fail this test]
float in liquid hibernation

please keep moving, better keep moving

i must get out once in a while
everything is starting to die.
the dust settles, the worms dig
and spiders crawl over the bed.

i must get out once in a while
i eat all day and now I'm fat
yesterday's meal is hugging the plate
you never wash up after yourself.
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    bored kinetik
float in liquid hibernation

you just had a threesum witcha mumma and yah auntiie

i am really really really bored. everyones gone furniture shopping and im STUCK at HOME by MYSELF.

any suggestions for what i could do? perhaps start my pd assignment on depression but we all know where that will lead. organise some school stuff? i should probably eat something i havent had lunch,, and its past 4.
...but...i think ill just stay glued to the dull computer screen. its like being hooked up to a breathing device. icant live without it
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    isolationn-joy division
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Am going away with family for a week, will be back saturday 29th April.

Don't have too much fun without me.
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    harddrive whirring
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i am very bored. we have a lot of work to do. im going to this random thing at the mca tonight with jess. i felt like i needed to update lj, even though it feels somewhat indulgent and im doubtful anyone even reads it anymore.

anyways, its someones birthday today, so happy birthday to him. 25.. woah
im just saying hello i guess. and i should probably get back to working, or at least pretending to.

good afternoon then
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    pink floyd the wall
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I just finished watching Wolf Creek. Holy shit, it is by far the scariest movie of all time. i mean, i love scary movies, i can watch a ton of gore and not be freaked, but shit, my heart feels like its about to come out of my chest. i cant imagine what it would have been like in the cinema, i think i would have started crying. family friends of ours, like 45 year old men, said to my mum it scared the hell out of them.

but i suppose theres only about 3 maybe 4 really really nasty scenes, and apart from that it is actually very beautifully shot, somewhere in perth i think. but this one scene with one of the backpacker girls and the guy..omg.. i was so scared.

its a terrifying movie, and for me to be this scared it has to be seriously scary. even now, like 10 mins after, my heart is stillbeating so fast.


anyways. i hope you guys had a good weekend. im off to watch wedding crashers, and hopefully i wont die tonight.

i also got this random ghost documentary, like it has actual footage of ghosts, real ghosts, from this place in kentucky i think. i probably wont be watching that haha...

so yes, see you guys tomorrow and whatever. geo.
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    scared fuck
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Your Five Factor Personality Profile


You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."


You have low conscientiousness.
Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.
Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.
Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.


You have low agreeableness.
Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all.
In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted.
And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently.


You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

these things make no sense. WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL ON LJ. ok, i am getting off now. for real this time. NIIGHHTTT
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    bored BORED.